I Can't See The Light

For weeks I've felt lost and I can't see the light 
Shining through the darkest of days 
What can I do to stop myself from hiding my thoughts 
From this world of lies? 
I've felt so lost for far too long 
Trying to leave it all behind 
I find I cannot forgive myself for feeling like this 
How can I even begin to forgive myself for all the things I'm thinking of doing to you? 
How can I forgive myself for this? 
But it's all in your head 
You just walk out of my life and you expect me to let you back in 
With open arms I'll turn to you 
For weeks I've felt lost and I can't see the light 
So I'll do this one alone 
I'll hide my thoughts from you 
Is it beyond impossible for me to hold on for you? 
Is it beyond you to forgive me? 
If not I'll do it on my own time 
How can I forgive myself? 
For my world is slowly falling down 
And you just stand there and watch me fall