Get Down

I wish I could remember the day I lost it 
  Flip through the pages i've written when i'm unconcious 
  I black out and I don't really understand it 
  But everythings relative everythings relative right now 
  I feel my life is a physical writing block 
  Repeating over the past but fighting against the clock 
  And it hurts me 
  Deep down inside though it urks me 
  And (? you could settle for poetical sounded purpose (?) is gone 
  And I don't really say goodbyes much 
  Wasn't worth the wait but this plague is mine 
  Yup, so if my writing is encrypited across the airways 
  Boogie down break neck style emotion airraites the passion 
  Single emission to see the facit 
  Mingle with dead and inflict it with this disaster like welcome 
  I don't know what it means but it helps me 
  Another dyin dream in the land of living wealthy, to pray on 
  Conflicted to the grey spots 
  Life is painted full palette pictures with the gifting, is my pain caused 
  Believe it though, even in its meaningless 
  I tread the water dreamfully exceeding whats eating me 
  I get down 
  I get down, it's like this, down like how 
  Man I black out the pressure 
  I fade out the sound 
  I get down, it's like this, down like how 
  How down cut your wrists down pump your fists down 
  I get down, it's like this, down like how 
  Man I black out the pressure 
  I fade out the sound 
  I get down and it's like this 
  Mourn into it 
  Another grey day reject 
  Another tombstone in the graveyard of respect 
  The (?) of my life and fuse with religion 
  Got all my (?) shout outs to yeah like clay pigeons 
  And it isn't what you envision 
  Would you admit if a single (intimate?) smidgeon if ever given a damn 
  So whats my life huh another breath taken 
  Water under the bridge a fool for the makin, it must be 
  I mean love don't trust me 
  Fight for its feelin while I die in its company 
  I get down and it's impossible to get up 
  A heart full of bricks with a mouth full of hiccups 
  With more dust to kick up then ambition itself 
  Handcuffed to the furnace of my own vision of hell 
  I seem dossile yeah born into the wrong child 
  Fight against the smiles and frowns people 
  I get down 
  I get down, it's like this, down like how 
  Man I black out the pressure 
  I fade out the sound 
  I get down, it's like this, down like how 
  How down cut your wrists down pump your fists down 
  I get down, it's like this, down like how 
  Man I black out the pressure 
  I fade out the sound 
  I get down and it's like this 

  Let the weight I been to black 
  It would never be forgot 
  I can't stop it I won't let this blow away