Panic

Today is going to be easy
Today 'cause you're not around
I'll leave off my make-up
I'll sleep in my bed
To pass all the time by
Today 'cause you're not around
Today you won't be aroundI concentrate on empty spaces
A passive pondering of blankness
Sit down, shut up, controlled obsessions
Your absence it exhausts meI always panic when I'm left
I always panic when I'm leftToday I feel destructive
Today who cares about myself?
I'll live in denial
And I'll beat up my head
And I'll eat all the chocolate
Today 'cause you're not around
Today you won't be aroundI can't control my feelings
I sip on dreams and choke on real things
Detach myself for preservation
I struggle to not want youI always panic when I'm left
Oh, is it healthy that we met?
If you stop coming will I forget?
I always panicToday is going to be simple
Today 'cause you're not around
My heart will pound lazy
No one to impress
No smile is required
Today 'cause you're not around
Today you won't be around