The Last Three Letters

Dearest love
I hope this message finds you well
As these endless thoughts drip from my soul
Every single word secretly paints a fairytale
Of when we will melt into oneEyes forfeit sight to the pain
Cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
As I cling to my memories of you
I am so scared, so scared, I need you with meWere the last words
That I wrote for you enough to tell you
That in my death the light that shone
Through my painful darkness
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?It's me again
Is it me or am I wrong to be concerned?
Will the beauty of your pen
Ever cross my eyes again?
Was this all a lie? Why?Were the last words
That I wrote for you enough to tell you
That in my death the light that shone
Through my painful darkness
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?Make it stop
Make this pounding in my head stop
Fill my lungs with air, give me one more day
To make her dreams come trueShe understands right?
That I'm not coming back
She understands right?
That I'm not coming backMake it stop, make the pounding stop
I'm not coming back
I'm not coming back
I'm not coming backI don't know what happened
Who would have thought
My life would end up like this?I never even got the chance
To see her face or to touch her hair
And now it's too lateI didn't mean to hurt her
Not hurt her like this
I can't feel my legs
I can't feel my legs
And I can't even cryHow could someone die like this?
Who would have thought
My life would end up like thisIf my words ever reach you
I'll assume you don't care
Never knew that silence could cut
So deep or that you could twist the bladeNow I curse all of your beautiful lies
I love you and goodbyeWere the last words
That I wrote for you enough to tell you
That in my death the light that shone
Through my painful darkness
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?Cold scalpel's steel
Whispers tear at my very core
As I cling to my memories of you